Photo by Elizabeth Messina
Hello Friends! Happy 2012!
As we begin the New Year I thought I would share something I FORGOT.
I decided to take a week off of work between Christmas and New Year’s. Saying I would do it was easy – now I had to prove to myself and to my office that I could disconnect.
I woke up my first day of NO WORK and I FORGOT how to just lay. Just lay in bed and do nothing. I jumped out of bed because it didn’t feel right to just lay around. I opened my bedroom curtains and I FORGOT how lovely the view is from my bedroom. I FORGOT that I have a gardner come twice a week to maintain the plants and flowers. I FORGOT I have fruit trees that wait for me to enjoy its delicious growth of lemons, limes and baby apples. They just grow and rot because I FORGOT they were there. I FORGOT to take the plastic off the new cushions I bought last summer for my kids and their friends to enjoy…were they laying on the plastic?
I went into my 13 year old son’s room and snuggled with him on my first day off. I FORGOT that he had grown about 2 more feet and his legs are longer then mine and my little boy was transforming into a man before my eyes…I FORGOT to notice. I went into my middle son’s room (he’s 21, 6’1 and about 200 pounds ) singing a wake up song I would sing every morning when he was little. He was half asleep but managed to sing all the words right back to me. I FORGOT how he used to be so angry every morning because of my horrible voice but now he found it funny. I FORGOT how I use to laugh hysterically as he would yell at me to “please stop singing!”
My dogs were confused at why I was the one feeding them and walking them but I FORGOT how much I love their sweetness and unconditional love and how out of shape I’m in… they walked me around the block!
I FORGOT that I can actually make plans with my family and friends and not have to cancel because I have a work emergency. I FORGOT that I can go to a movie and not only be inspired but I didn’t have to look at my Blackberry 50 times (ok, so 20 times- but I’mworking on it…) to see if someone needed me. I FORGOT that there is a whole city out there right in front of me that exists – it’s not only the box I put myself in from home to work to carpool to work to home. I FORGOT about me. My hubby and kids FORGOT that I can actually cook. I had 48 over for Hanukkah and I FORGOT where all my cooking utensils were and all my vintage bowls and platters that I bought for the moment I would have people over. I FORGOT how long it takes to cook a brisket.
I FORGOT that I started knitting 3 scarfs about 4 years ago and I found the bag I safely put away with inspiration for more knitting projects. I FORGOT that the feeling I get when I laugh is like the feeling I get when I see a dream I created come true…feels like home to me.
So as I get ready to go back to work I decided that along with the dreams I plan to create for my clients I will make a priority to take time for some of my dreams, my husband’s dreams my children’s dreams. I don’t want to go through life FORGETTING what could of been, because I just had to take one week off to REMEMBER what I FORGOT!